My 1st Post: It's Time To Go Back To My Roots

Well, everyone. I think its about that time... Time for me to go back to my roots, to go back to what I was originally made with and lost so many years ago... I have a confession to make: I've been covering up something about myself for years... For so many years, in fact, that it's been forgotten about and isn't even a part of me anymore. But, deep down, it is and always will be as long as I have breath in my body. And now, this secret is about to come out for the whole world to see....
LoL, I bet you're like, 'what the hell is this chick talking about???'. I'm talking about my hair. Sorry I made it sound so serious . But, I am going to grow out my natural hair. I don't have the guts to BC yet, b/c short hair wouldn't work with me. So I'm just growing out my natural hair and cutting off the relaxed hair as it grows out or when i trim my ends. Pray for me: I have no clue what to do. I'm not going to a salon. I've been wanting to learn how to do my own hair, anyway. That's another reason why I say pray for me. My hair is probably gonna look so uneven at times since I'm trimming my own ends. Support, tips, and suggestions would be really appreciated. The only support I have around me is myself. My mom and grandma, the two most important people in my life, think I'm crazy... But Im not giving in.

WHY I CHOSE TO TRANSITION BACK TO MY NATURAL HAIR
I want my hair to be healthier. I know relaxers arent horrible when done right, but it's even healthier to just avoid them. I started getting perms at an early age (like 5 or 6 I think, maybe younger). No matter what I do, now, my hair grows a little past my shoulders, but thats it. I want my hair longer, and also healthier.
I'm also just really bored with relaxers. I hate how my hair looks after a fresh one, too: flat to my head, limp, bone straight, dead... Not downing straight hair, though, don't misunderstand me ( I'm just talking about on ME). But I don't want straight hair all the time, and I can barely do anything to it... I'll have more versatility with my natural hair, in my opinion.
Reason number 3: I've developed an affinity for big, curly, natural (or even messy-looking), hair. I love it! And I want my own, so I won't obsess about other people's hair as much anymore. I know my hair may not look exactly like that; but idk my natural hair; I've never seen it. No, the times when I was little don't count because I don't even remember those.
Reason number 4: I want to be different. I love being different, unique. You don't see much of that in Mississippi. And I stay in a small town, so you really don't see it here. My outside personality is kinda on the verge of a little/terribly shy. I'm trying to come out of it. I believe transitioning will help me become more comfortable in my skin and when I become completely natural, I believe it will help my more inner, outgoing personality come out a little better. I will feel like myself. Less awkward; more confident; me. My inner self comes out mostly on the internet and a few of my close friends. I want this great, sparkling me to be shown to everyone. I'm even terribly shy around my mom. I know the saying that no matter how much you change on the outside, you're not fixed until you've changed on the inside as well. But the main reason I have such low self-esteem is because sometimes I just feel out of place, or like things just don't fit. I think my hiar is one of the missing puzzle peices. It will help fix the inner me, because my hair now is making the inside feel like something isn't right; and something's not.
Final Reason: I'll admit it- I'm kinda lazy, hehe ! When I'm completely natural, I wont have to deal with all the stuff that I deal with now with permed hair: touch-ups, wrapping at night, styling, heat( blowdryers, curling irons, etc.). I can flat-iron when i feel like it and not worry if I don't. I can have a messy look and it'll be cute. I won't have to worry about what to do all the time. I wont have to worry about getting my hair wet and looking like i stuck my finger in a light socket, lol! One of the pics I look at for inspiration is the picture of the girl at the top of the site maneandchic.com. I love it. Hehe i even printed it!

I'll add pics of my transition as soon as I get around a camera. I sort of decided to do this in between perms, so I don't really know how far along I am. I know I've had one perm this year. Either in January or February, so I'm probably about 2-3 months in.

Well, yall, I'm outies. If you have any, I'd love support, tips, sites, and suggestions. Thx!




LaDy RaE